I’m basically staring at this screen since I entered the Computer Literacy class a few minutes ago. I can’t seem to think properly. I hate myself for letting me being fooled once again. It’s probably true; that saying you know, “learn from your own mistakes” ? But what have I learned from my mistakes? I feel like I keep making the same ones again and again and again and… You get it. 

I hate to think that I’m stupid. Apparently though, seems like I am kinda stupid. I keep on making stupid decisions. I keep on saying stupid things. I can’t stop doing stupid things. I keep telling myself that I’m stupid. Huh? I don’t know.. What am I saying? My mind’s in such a haze that I don’t really know what’s up with me.. I need someone, but then again I don’t. I feel like I need him, but I don’t think I do. I want to have something to do, but what is there to be done? (apart from assignments, mind you)

What are they discussing about? I hear laughters and they’re like talking about e-mails? Oh, without e-mails? Er, oh well. I’m sitting here in the computer lab, being totally unfocused. I am so distracted by my thoughts and feelings that I can’t pay attention to what they’re talking about…

(Sighing deeply) I should probably stop my babbling now. It’s only making me feel more hatred towards myself; because it makes me feel more stupid. Duh. I’m out.